one word:

อดทน - the thai word for endure. When I am at my very lowest and I am down on my knees begging the world to swallow me whole, this word comes to mind. Sure, things get rough; they are bound to get rough, but I will stick out out and อดทน. Everything will be fine. I will get through this horrible please-shoot-me-already period and when I do, I will look back on it and laugh and be in my happy rainbow-coloured bubble of joy and invincibility where I'm floating above everyone and no one can reach out and burst it. 

image taken from flickr

I have my economics exam tomorrow and to be frank, I'm petrified. I haven't studied this hard in months and I am aching to prove myself. I'm aching to prove that no, I am NOT stupid- yes, I can do well in economics and yeah I'm not completely useless after all. I haven't cared about doing well in an exam since the HSC (only cos I would have been murdered if I didn't get into university) and I am totally not used to night-before exam jitters. Perhaps its time to put mindfulness meditation therapy that they always talk about in Psych to use. Who am I kidding? They tried that shit on me during an experiment and all I could think about was how big the experimenter's boobs were. 

อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน
อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน
อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน
อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน
อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน อดทน

close my eyes & I count to ten- 

everything will be wonderful again 

x's & o's